I know this hell that you have perfectly put into words. I hope the words lead to sentences lead to healing lead to more poems/fiction/nonfiction/writing like this which I think help remind the rest of us we’re not alone.
I started drinking half caf coffee a while back to help with the jittery anxious feelings I have generally that I thought might be exacerbated by caffeine. This week I started added a second cup to my day. The mid-day mood slump was getting to me. All days start with energy and hope for me, and they all end with a bit of sadness and dissolution. It's a pattern I'd love to break but wonder how that's possible if I'm not willing to break the monotony of my self-imposed habits. The more things stay the same, the less they change?? That makes sense, I guess.
I'm very sorry to hear about your nephew, Wil. What a terrible loss; I can't even imagine. I hope your writing, whether epic novels or quick poems, can help to bring a sense of peace and stability into your day. Grief turns everything upside down.
“and every morning I wake up having forgot”
I know this hell that you have perfectly put into words. I hope the words lead to sentences lead to healing lead to more poems/fiction/nonfiction/writing like this which I think help remind the rest of us we’re not alone.
Hi Wil.
I started drinking half caf coffee a while back to help with the jittery anxious feelings I have generally that I thought might be exacerbated by caffeine. This week I started added a second cup to my day. The mid-day mood slump was getting to me. All days start with energy and hope for me, and they all end with a bit of sadness and dissolution. It's a pattern I'd love to break but wonder how that's possible if I'm not willing to break the monotony of my self-imposed habits. The more things stay the same, the less they change?? That makes sense, I guess.
Grief is a beast.
Take care, friend. 💜
This beast I’d like to kick!
Great writing! And I'm sorry for your loss.
Thanks! And thanks!
I'm very sorry to hear about your nephew, Wil. What a terrible loss; I can't even imagine. I hope your writing, whether epic novels or quick poems, can help to bring a sense of peace and stability into your day. Grief turns everything upside down.
> Composure = self-control = staying calm = effective in stressful situations.
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> It’s not exactly lying, but it’s definitely not an authentic expressing of feelings.
I feel like each day this becomes more necessary and yet more difficult.
Sending you solidarity and prayers from the other side of the world.
Thanks Richard.